My name is Pookie Parker, well, not really, but, for the sake of this blog, it is. I am 26, born in 2000, so its easy to remember my age due to the year. Every time I start this, or attempt to, I find myself wondering where do I even begin? Yes, I have a lot to say, but not everything is as important as the main reason I wanted to make this a thing anyways.
I am someone who has C-PTSD due to things out of my control. While I can remember pieces of my childhood, I barely remember anything. I also have Bipolar Disorder, Type 2. Most people expect someone who is labeled with Bipolar disorder to have explosive emotions, and those people would be correct, to some extent. I feel like I am a person that has always kept my emotions bottled up, and when I do talk about anything, that thing doesn’t just magically disappear or “feel better” as quick as people would hope.
This is for me. Something I wanted to start a long time ago, but, I needed time. Time to collect my thoughts, time to figure out what I really wanted this to be. While yes, This is set up to be a blog of sorts, this is also for me to fully put into words my healing journey. I want to share every wound, every small thing that I have kept in my head, because other than my chosen family, who else is going to know. Even if someone who knows me does find out about this, I would rather that this be shared than hidden anymore. I am tired of hiding everything, because it’s slowly killing me, in a way I thought was just something people just made up.